Category Archives: sadness
non-attachment
hate to say it, but i am attached. i am working on letting go and looking forward. today, i found out i have hypothyroidism. i had some routine annual bloodwork yesterday which ended up with an elevated TSH level. The … Continue reading
crashing down
yesterday was in my top 5 of worst days ever. i had some spotting while i was at work and called the nurse from a hallway on a different floor. i was panicked. she asked me to come in, saying, … Continue reading
a dark post
i am trying to stay calm. today i am frustrated and anxious. i can’t believe i have to carry on with my life outside of infertility. i was supposed to get my period on day 10-11 of lupron.. today is … Continue reading
resolve
this pregnancy is resolving, my hcg is coming down and i started bleeding pretty bad a few nights ago. i am getting back to my life. i am thankful that it isn’t ectopic and as it looks now it won’t … Continue reading
next
monday the donor nurse calls to tell me that my numbers did not double the way they are supposed to. i was prepared for it, and just relieved that i can get some closure. i had to teach yoga right … Continue reading
day four
today was exhausting. very long day at work. walked the 3 blocks to my car in the pouring rain, i had forgotten my umbrella. then sat in traffic for over an hour on my way to the wake of my … Continue reading
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