this morning was the transfer, it was surprisingly very quick and easy. if you are doing ivf and they offer you the Valium, take it. oh, God, take. the. Valium. i didn’t feel that it was helping with my anxiety on the ride over, but once i got into the scrubs and up on the table with my legs spread eagle, and a giant spotlight on my coochie, i was very glad to have had it. just a nice warm feeling that allows you to focus on relaxing and breathing, and not the fact that your heart is knotted like a pretzel and lodged in your windpipe.
we had 10 eggs fertilize, and 4 were of perfect A quality. we transferred 2 and froze 2. they will watch the others in the lab and on day 5 or 6 they will decide if any will have grown to 8 cells and are good enough quality to freeze. brian says if we have twins this time, we are done. i haven’t decided how i feel about that, but am taking it day by day.
watching the ultrasound was so strange.. i could see the embryos sliding down the catheter (wee!) and they both jumped right into my uterus! they were little white specs, floating in liquid. i rested on a stretcher in recovery for a while and brian took this picture of me and the embryos:
as i write this, i am home, camped on the couch, watching Ellen, and trying to relax. and now… returning to your regularly scheduled programming: more waiting.