This week has been wonderful. It’s warm, sunny and everywhere I look, I see water. We have filled our days with being outside. So far, we have kept our secret, although I do think bri’s sisters have some suspicions. They have been thankfully sweet about it and haven’t pushed at all. It helps to not feel any added pressure. When you go through a few losses like we have, you feel this immense pressure to produce a child, you were so close, lots of doctors have invested in you, people really want it to happen for us, who am I to stand in the way of everyone getting what they want. I mean, come on and have a baby already. So, having a secret bun in the oven does help by keeping it secret. Bri has taken to calling it the “junior mint”.
I have been taking long walks and thinking good thoughts. I don’t feel pregnant at all, sometimes when I’m distracted, I forget. And then I remember and it’s like my heart wells to the size of a seedless watermelon.